This Is Getting Annoying

For once, I actually sat down and prepared myself for my theory midterm. And I'm not a big theory whiz-kid - I tend to make ridiculously stupid mistakes. I.E. Double things that have no reason to be doubled, inadvertently resolving things the WRONG way.

I thought I was prepared. Really took the time to look over my notes, to go through terminology - and I felt good. Prepared, which is something I rarely am good at when it comes to theory.

I was certain I was going to get an A. NO - I'm going to be mediocre and get a B. What is that? I don't like B's - even though after this degree, grades are a complete thing of the past. Nonetheless, it is absolutely disgusting to me to not get an A. What?

But, what freaks me out is that, even with the preparation I did - and the study - I still made enough mistakes to vomit such a grade?

I feel like I'm failing at life over here because I can't master freakin' counterpoint and tonal harmony?!?!?!

This is very disheartening. Very discouraging. Very frustrating.

Damn.